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All of These Lines: My Story of Pregnancy, Loss and HopeHave you ever felt like you were doing grief wrong? Are you navigating the raw, real parts of life after pregnancy or infant loss, feeling misunderstood and alone? In All of These Lines, Bianca Johnson shares her deeply personal journey through six pregnancy losses from eight pregnancies - from the devastation of her first termination at 21 to the joy and terror of carrying two living children, and the heartbreaking decision to end her final wanted pregnancy. This isn't a book of prescriptive advice or platitudes. It's an honest, unflinching companion for the messy, non-linear path of grief and healing that so many walk in silence. Through vivid storytelling that reads like sitting down with a trusted friend, Bianca takes you through hospital waiting rooms, ultrasound appointments where heartbeats stopped, well-meaning but hurtful comments from family and friends, and the slow, hard work of learning to live with loss while still reaching for hope. She shares the complexity of carrying grief and joy simultaneously - of parenting living children whilst mourning the ones who never made it home. What's Inside: Woven throughout her story are practical journaling exercises, music playlists, and reflection prompts that invite you to process your own experience at your own pace. This hybrid memoir-and-guide offers tools for: Releasing the pressure to ""get over it"" Quieting your inner critic Building authentic support systems Integrating trauma into your story without letting it define you Who This Book Is For: All of These Lines is for anyone who has experienced pregnancy loss, infant loss, termination for medical reasons, or infertility struggles. It's for partners, family members, and friends who want to better understand and support their loved ones. It's for medical professionals seeking insight into the patient experience. And it's for anyone navigating profound grief and wondering how to keep living when everything feels broken. Written with raw honesty, compassion, and occasional humour, this book validates your unique experience whilst offering a roadmap for reconnecting with yourself and finding hope where you thought there was none. Your grief is yours alone, but your journey doesn't have to be.

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Raw, real, and necessary. You've offered a gift to anyone who will read this - the gift of honesty, companionship, and hope in the middle of heartache. Amanda Le Roux, Doula & loss mom It's one of those stories you want to keep reading, chapter after chapter... Bianca shares her pain and hope in a way that feels both heartfelt and genuine. Desrae Coventry, Amazon reviewer I believe Obstetricians and Gynaecologists would benefit by reading her story. Rev Dr JL Sprong, Goodreads I feel so much more normal after reading it. Jenny De Pontes, Loss mum ""Raw, real, and necessary. You've offered a gift to anyone who will read this - the gift of honesty, companionship, and hope in the middle of heartache."" Amanda Le Roux, Doula & loss mum ""It's one of those stories you want to keep reading, chapter after chapter... Bianca shares her pain and hope in a way that feels both heartfelt and genuine. She also offers readers practical tools for processing grief in an unrushed, thoughtful, and unique way. A playlist of Bianca's most meaningful songs is woven throughout the book, adding a special touch to her very personal story."" Desrae Coventry, Amazon reviewer ""I believe Obstetricians and Gynaecologists would benefit by reading her story."" Rev Dr JL Sprong, Goodreads ""I feel so much more normal after reading it. I wish I could give you the biggest, longest hug right now."" Jenny De Pontes, loss mum ""For me, your book is not just for loss mums, it's the book that every mum needs to read, that they didn't know they needed to. The guilt of finding it hard to parent a child you so desperately wanted - that really spoke to me. You have written a beautiful book. There is so much of yourself in there."" Amanda Le Roux, reader ""Reading it took me longer than I expected, not because it was hard to follow, but because it woke up things in me that I realised I hadn't fully faced. My own miscarriage, fertility struggles, and even the emotions from when my husband went through cancer - all of that came flooding back. Your words gave me permission to sit with those memories and feelings in a way I hadn't before. You've created a book that says, 'You are not alone. Your pain matters. Your story matters.' "" Loss Mom ""I love how openly you've written about something many people find hard to talk about. I celebrate your courage! Sharing your story will help other women going through loss."" Midlife Coach ""Such a tender and important topic. It's clear how much heart you've poured into this project. I know that sharing your story will help other women going through loss."" Sonja McKaiser ""This book is the author's debut - a page-turner that offers hope to women who have experienced pregnancy loss without giving any advice or repeating platitudes. It is a book about healing and about giving oneself permission to grieve. Something unique in this author's approach is that more training is needed to ensure that women experiencing pregnancy and infant loss are cared for with greater sympathy."" Rev Dr JL Sprong, Goodreads

Real, relatable, easy to read... You have carried across your pain in a way that is deeply genuine. I feel so much more normal after reading it. I wish I could give you the biggest, longest hug right now. This is not just for loss moms; it's the book that every mom needs to read, that they didn't know they needed to. You have written a beautiful book. There is so much of yourself in there.

Author Information

Bianca Johnson is an Empowerment Coach, author, and founder of Rainbow Hope South Africa, an online support community for loss parents she's led for over 12 years. After experiencing six pregnancy losses from eight pregnancies, she dedicated herself to creating spaces where women could find solace and connection during life's most isolating experiences. Bianca lives in Rosetta, in the KZN Midlands of South Africa, with her husband, two rainbow babies, and their chaotic menagerie of pets. When she's not writing or coaching, you'll find her journaling in her wildflower garden or planning the family's next camping trip to Kruger National Park. Find out more at biancajohnson.me

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